Friday, October 30, 2015

Stopped Open Up About Myself to Others

| Since 2010, I think I have stopped open up myself to others. it's tiring you know, when you were ready to get to know other person, you prepared yourself to accept what good and bad about them but later end up with they leave you without say anything. so, since then i decided to not open up about myself easily to other..I want to protect myself and my heart because the feeling of being left behind and being neglected like you are a fool and has no feeling..can you imagine how hurt would i feel? indescribable feeling ever! |


| So, for long time, I don't feel like get to know someone for a special reason and time goes by just like that alone..but i'm not lonely..i have my friends who are so funny and lovely so that i don't feel lonely at all..|


| But lately, that feeling appear again..because someone said that he is kinda like me..and i tell myself..why don't you try and open yourself this time..maybe it's time for you to be happy like other and maybe he's the one for you..so, i accept the challenge..i start to getting know him..slowly..i give us time..to open about each other..but it seems to slow and i wonder if he still like me when he know some of my information..because i'm just an ordinary person..nobody likes ordinary person i think..and maybe he suddenly feel like i'm not suitable with him..who knows..so, i don't want to push or force him..it's okay..i'm used to it after all..but deep in my heart..i always praying for someone to come to me and accept me for who i am..|


Working World

| Welcome to the working world! You wake up in the morning with full of energy and positivity your mind..you keep telling yourself that you will be a positive person from the morning until night. you will make yourself be prepared for whatever happened and you will face whatever come to you. every single day, you will keep on repeating to remind yourself to stay positive..the moment you step out from your home..while you walking to your car..when you driving..you listen to energetic and lovely songs to keep your upbeat and to be happy and cheerful..|


| However..on your way to reach office, you will face 1001 things which out of your control..bad traffic, rude people on the road, and when arrive office you have to face annoying colleagues, when you call people for anything, you need to deal with their rudeness, you need to taking care of your heart from every angle because you won't know when you will face all sort of problems and your energy become draining and your smile is not like your morning smile anymore|



| But like it or not, you have to deal with it everyday..it's all up to you about how you deal with it and how you protect yourself to no get carry away with those unhappy feelings and do not feel too stress..that's life..and that's life you choose to live in..take it or leave it..|